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Name: Nathan
Location: San Francisco, California, United States
Birthday: 9/18/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: See below.
Expertise: See above.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
6/23/2003
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| Happy [insert holiday-related and personally relevant greeting and well-wishing here] ! Cause it's a long holiday season and there's far too much to celebrate as it is. Hope everyone's with some form of loved ones and friends for the week!
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| Well. I turn 22 today. Huzzah for me! A 6 month overview soon to follow when I get my NEW COMPUTER! Woo! Wootzors! | | |
| *yawn*
Woo. I kept meaning to sit here a few times over the course of the last month and jot down some dream journal-esque posts. because my dreams have gotten significantly weirder. First of all, does anyone else out there get/have lucid dreams? Secondly, how lucid? How far can you control aspects and events in the dream? Or are you actually aware that you're dreaming? Lately my dreams are almost entirely lucid to the point where I'm actively controlling all my own actions and certain non internal aspects of the dream. Like when I transition from one location to another or details like a mode of transportation or people in the dream.
Examples? Well.... out of the ones I can still remember.... there was one where I was flying around the Hawaiian Islands. Or at least some tropical environ. But yeah. Flying. It was pretty cool. Landed on some vaguely volcanic mini islands offshore. Climbed some. Which made little sense giving my ability to well, fly. There were some people and I recall having problems maintaining altitude and spent a lot of time skimming the surface of the water. At some point I began to wake up and got dragged back to groggy semi-wakefulness. As a side note, I've been having real sleep issues. Past couple weeks I just lay there for 4 or so hours at night trying to sleep. Then as dawn approaches I'll finally pass out for an hour or so, after which I wake back up and pretty much can't get back to sleep. Then I'm exhausted for the rest of the day and the cycle repeats. And the dreams, which leave me not feeling quite like I got any sleep at all cause I was "awake" in the dream doing things. Weird thing did happen last week. I woke up feeling pretty refreshed, but in the dream I'd managed to get shot in the stomach and shoulder, so the dream was me looking around for emergency medical care. When I did get some it was weird and more painful than I would have imagined. Not the gun shot stuff, oddly. That had been blocked out. The whole diagnostic part at the hospital before anything was actually done hurt a lot. Then at some point I pulled out of the dream and was again groggy for a while. Another one was where I wandered a city and some nice sized city park with playgrounds and the like that was nearby which in turn changed in to a gigantic park with bike trails and complete remoteness. Then a search for some missing kid. Then more park changing. Then I drifted and started to wake up.
It's like I can feel the waking coming and the dream starts to fade and be replaced by semi-wakefulness. It's annoying because there's a nice buffer period of a few seconds or even a few minutes one time where I'm not really sure of anything. The brain hasn't yet confirmed the otherworldly and fantastically impossible nature of the dream with the apparently random bed I'm waking up in, so I'm caught in a brief limbo of "WTF?" Which is kinda nice because all the worries and attachments to anything are gone. Everything's just a comfortable void for a little while. Then my brain cylinders all start firing up and I'm like "Oh, right. I'm here. Damn."
This morning for example I was at some big public beach, probably based on Hawaii with a giant cliffside and roped off swimming areas. The dreams almost always get to some lull point when they end. But yeah. Weird, annoying and causing me some sleep scheduling issues. I had a nice beat of "normal" day/night patterns for a while, which slipped back to my usual nocturnal patterns.... yesterday.. no two days ago. And I've got things need doing so this is worrying. Add in the fact that my mom thinks anything can be solved with pure desire and will, pharmacological shortcuts are to be avoided at all costs. I say bull. If I crawl in to bed exhausted and spend the next four hours thinking about absolutely nothing to bore my brain in to unconsciousness and I end up with 45 minutes of sleep then dammit I'm calling in a infusion of whatever will get me to sleep.
Anywho, I've got essays to write, well one essay. But it's evil and annoying, so it counts double. Triple, if you separate the evil and annoying aspects. Later.
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| Heyo. I need new TV. Now. Reaper and Chuck are getting new episodes, but that's gonna take forever. House is taking it's time getting things going and won't have new eps for long. Thursday nights on NBC feed The Office, My Name Is Earl and 30 Rock, which is all find and good for insane comedy. You know what we need? New Firefly. Where is Joss Whedon and what is he up to? Space drama/western for great win!
Alright, I'm in the lab and gotten some amount of homework done. Then there's practicing that was done. So a productive day all around. S'pose I could go home and play video games. Or perhaps get ahead on my studies. Hm. I think we all know what I'm going to do. Is anyone else out there bored of school? Cause I'm sure not! I jest, of course. I am absolutely tired of this place. I'm not hating on it for any particular reason, or even hating on it period. I just want to be somewhere else, if only for a short period of time.
In music news, the new Death Cab for Cutie single slays me. The video's done and done but still kinda nice. But man, that desire from afar thing is dangerous. In any event, I'm bored and I uh... need to get out of the lab. Badly. Extra badly. *gone*
*not gone* Dammit. I just checked their site and they were at the Fillmore last week. Isn't someone supposed to keep me up to date on these things? WTF? And they're doing oodles of shows with Rogue Wave. Quintuple WTF? They're back in June so.... hm.... Whatever. *really gone*
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| What's this? Posts on consecutive days? What madness hath possessed Nathan?
Boredom. And I'm proctoring the music comp lab. Homework was done, more homework to come. And now I'm stalling before that other homework and I have our bloody duel.
Reading school texts fails. I mean, the text isn't always utterly boring. Although, I am a touch biased, being one who reads pretty voraciously and will fill this need with almost anything that's at hand. Except that music theory textbook. Well, no.. I'd read it. If there was literally nothing else to do. Which is rare, if I'm at the apartment or at home or here at the lab, there's always a distraction a few keystrokes away. Or if I have my iPod or GBA. Hm. I wonder where the GBAs went. There are games need playing. Anywho, yeah. I'm getting through assigned readings. Oy. Maybe I'll play some DTD Hah. Oh! Parasite Eve II! I need more games in a similar vein. Cause shooting things + RPG stuff = win. I even started another replay of Ratchet & Clank: Up Your Arsenal. Then I stopped, cause everything was done. Then some Dynasty Warriors 5. There were still things that needed unlocking and finishing. But I'm getting through Parasite Eve II and I'm pretty close to the end. Hm. 7pm already. Think I'll finish up here and practice a bit then go home. Sound like a plan? Yeah. Alright. *gone* Later.
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